Held Hostage by Comparison

"You God, are my God, earnestly I seek you; I thirst for you, my whole being longs for you, in a dry and parched land where there is no water." Psalm 63:1

God, I seek you but I can't hear. Where are you? I know you are here with me, but I can't see you. My soul feels lifeless and I want to see your fruit again, but it feels like I'm walking through a desert with no water. I want to live to the fullest you have for me.

"I have seen you in the sanctuary and beheld your power and your glory. Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you. I will praise you as long as I live, and in your name I will lift up my hands. I will be fully satisfied as with the richest of foods, with singing lips my mouth will praise you." Psalm 63:2-5

I have seen you work in many places throughout my life. I've watched you move mountains and provide my every need. You've shown me the depth of your love for me. My heart longs to praise you and to be fully satisfied in you. Yet, my heart also looks around frantically watching you give others what I've longed for, for so long. My heart is happy for them and yet my heart grieves. My heart knows you are truly enough and yet it longs for more. I believe you've created me for more in this life, I know the dreams you have placed within me well... though I feel stuck right now, I know it won't be forever.

"On my bed I remember you; I think of you through the watches of night. Because you are my help; I sing in the shadow of your wings. I cling to you; your right hand upholds me. Those who want to kill me will be destroyed; they will go down into the depths of the earth. They will be given over to the sword and become food for jackals. But the king will rejoice in God; all who swear by God will glory in him, while the mouths of liars will be silenced." Psalm 63:6-11

Lord, help me remember your goodness. Keep my thoughts on you. Help me move forward by faith, even when I can't see the outcome. Give me a voice to sing praises in the shadow of your protection. Hold me tighter, as I cling to you and guide me as I seek to use the gifts you've given me. The lies of comparison that seek to destroy me, they are nothing. They hold no power over me. You have already broken my chains, I don't have to be a hostage to them anymore. I will rejoice in you, because you free me and you have already silenced the lies of comparison within me.